Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Lacking motivation....need a change
Hello dear friends, sorry for the lack of motivation and blog posts! I am just not feeling it lately! Us here at the good ole Jackson household like to shake life up every now and then, usually once we get settled somewhere and RE-do.... I have really been questioning what I want to do with myself. I LOVE being with my children, they bring me so much joy. BUT... lately I feel like I am lacking something for myself, I know selfish right? I have this wonderful education that I worked hard to get AND paid to get.. and would like to use it. I miss feeling like I am contributing, financially to our family when I could! My children are so well adapted and social! Mia loves being around other kids and thrives on it! Mr. Eli is starting school in August and can't wait!! So I feel like it's time for me to go BACK to work...ok back to working outside the home!! Well anywho...this is such a personal, emotional, hard, frustrating decision! I am a huge believer that things happen for a reason...and that if I am open to change and inspiration that all things will fall into place to make it happen...I feel I am so unhappy with our current situation and my kids suffer...I miss working...again I know selfish.. SO I applied for a local job that was posted and seemed..ok..not a position I would LOVE but would work... low and behold that position was filled and wouldn't have worked anyway...BUT that next day a recruiter from Children's Hospital of LA found my resume( I wasn't actively looking for any jobs except the local one) and would LOVE for me to apply to an AMAZing opportunity in LA!! CRAZY..right? Well I said..ok why not? The job is ME what I love to do and it's just a CRAZY story! So I went to my WONDERFUL husband and was like...so...um...well what would you think about moving to LA!!! keep in mind that is where I am from, my roots, some of my most favorite people still live there...although we would be leaving SOOO many loves here too. He was like hmmm CA is $$$ so as i was talking to the hospital they offered me a number that would make $$$ CA doable! So he was in and is now so super excited for the challenge!! He is so supportive of me and wants me to be happy! So I am flying out to CA sometime next week!